So i havent posted in here forever

Its Christmas Eve.

and thats exciting.

i am thinking about what im thankful for and how its so amazing

and how i miss peoplee a lot.

Josiah im posting for you too. :]

lets talk real soon.

new cell number. 671 7252

 I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning. Yeah.. 

 I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me

The dreaded words finally come to her ears, the words she never though she would hear, nor would she want to “..we need to talk...listen don’t try to hide the mistakes I made this time but please try and listen cuz im breaking my heart tonight so you can see what’s inside.” She closed her eyes and looked away. He smirked “ and I no that you hoped for longer goodbyes embracing forever and falling into your eyes..” “ Don’t you see, don’t you see that the charade is over? All the best deceptions and the clever cover story awards go to you. So kiss me hard because this will be the last time that I let you and I know you, you will be back some day when you realized what you lost and this awkward kiss that tells of other peoples lips will be of service of giving you away then ill look and say I heard about your regrets I heard that you where feeling sorry I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us I guess I should have heard of that from you. He knew it was the truth but couldn’t give in then “ but what we hate, we make you will know what you will be and yeah you will know what you mean to me yeah you will know that truthfully…im sorry.” Sorry slipping off your lips means nothing to me right now boys will be boys and if love existed it wouldn’t be so soft and easy to ruin, turning to you is like is like falling in love when your ten..a fairy tale and a pretend happy ending. “ Your looking to deep into this whole situation and there’s no need to test my heart with useless space.” There once grasped hands finally let go, the sparkle in there eyes are gone with out a glow her final words slipped out not even thinking of the effects like holding onto a time when nothing mattered “ for all of this I might just be better off with out you but in the end will we regret all of are loneliness? No calls they’ll be ignored I’d rather say nothing I’d rather you’d never heard my voice you’ll be calling to late, to late to be gracious and you do not warrant long good byes, your calling to late..”  “A year later he saw her. Ever since that one night he always wanted to know something so he asked her is she missed him. Her reply was. I don’t miss you, I miss the guy you use to be who called me every second who sat at home on Saturday nights when we couldn’t be together thinking of me the guy who knew how to say sorry the guy who came to my house after every fight that’s the guy I miss, you. Well how could I miss you, I don’t even know you..” Same old story guys everybody knows one heart holding on, one letting go. <3 Kiss

Deep down inside i know its the best for you...and thats all that really matters. *